She was sitting there. in the front row of the classroom.. She was the hyperactive chatty gal that I would love to loathe...
At
first sight, there was simply nothing extraordinary about her.
I was
annoyed at her seemingly uncontrollable mischievous personality. But
then again, I looked beyond that and recognized her warm and mature
personality... And that her large brown eyes enthralled
me....Captivating me with her sweet and jovial smile...
I fell in love with her........
There
was only one thing I can... and must... do... I gotta let her know how I
feel.. I did, and that's the start of a wonderful, forever lasting
love... or at least that's what I thought.
Those
were the happiest times of my life. I would call her numerous times a
day..... Life for me was heavenly. I had always dreamt of loving my
other significant half to the max, even when I was a young child. This
was a dream come true for me. She was almost the perfect girl I had
dreamt about before. She loved me as much as I love her (I still do...).
I would embrace her tightly to feel her warmth and kiss softly on her
forehead. I long to be with her forever. Words alone could not describe
the blissful times I had with her. Her distinctive voice would just
banish my blues away. We never squabbled before. Life is truly a heaven
to experience such a true love. For me, true love is always 0.1% lust,
0.9% attraction and 99.0% appreciation. I had always appreciated her and
so did she.
Those
times went on for 2 years. But then, the inevitable happened. She
became aloof, unresponsive and her cheerful disposition had diminished.
"What happened to her"? I asked myself...Gradually, she lessen her phone
calls to me. I tried coaxing her to talk to me but to no avail. Then,
after weeks of coaxing, she finally told me that she had changed (she
didn't know why, it just came all of a sudden). She told me that our
characters do not match and sad to say that we should not continue the
relationship. She implied that I'm a person who does not care much about
the world around me (which is quite true as I don't trust friends and
I'm quite a loner) She also said that there are small little things that
also add up to her unhappiness. I was devastated... I didn't know that
she felt that way all this time... Well, I knew about my weaknesses but I
thought that she accepted them. I cried and pleaded her to stay on with
me but to no avail as it was only the most sensible thing for a matured
person (such as herself) to do. She said that its better for us to
separate rather than go deeper into an unhappy relationship than is
doomed to failure (which is, sad to say, true). I am still in a deep
depressed state. Its been 4 months since she broke up with me...
How
I hope to be with her again. Its actually not her fault. She was doing
the only sensible thing (to break up before we go any deeper).
Sometimes, I feel like life's fragile.....
A beautiful thing like love can be ended abruptly Feels like a precious thing had been taken away from me...
Just like a beautiful rose that withered away....
